Yesterday, right before 4am, your baby sister woke up and I got her. Since here room isn't not done yet, she is in her crib in mommy and daddy's room. Well I was thinking of you, as I always do and the bed, then crib and walls started to shake, we found out it was a 3.8 earthquake north of us. Your older brother and sister never woke up, so thanks for watching out for them. It was a crazy night. We miss you. It seems to feel good to me to just send a thought to you and just say what I want. Soon it will be 2 years since you were silently born, we have a few things planned. We love you always!

Hi Angel, it's taken mommy along time (just about 2 years) to get to a point where I am ok. I have been to many memorial sites and read and read, but I had finally decided to do an online memorial for you. In a way, it's a bit helpful, even though it's been almost 2 days. Daddy doesn't know about this yet, but on his 40th birthday I am going to surprise him, well that's on 03/05, we are going to do it the day of his surprise party 02/27.. Your brother and sisters are getting daddy a Hawks training jersey with our name and your #, 23. Oh, we had a small earthquake here, about 50 miles from us, but we felt it. The whole house shook, even the bed and all. I will write again later, writing to you is helpful. I miss you so much and I tell your baby sister about you everyday. We all love you. Hugs and Kisses.

When the Dr. told me there was no heartbeat, my heart stopped. I was frozen, couldn't believe it, it felt almost like a dream I couldn't wake up from. I never felt "real" until labor began and you were coming, silently. No cries, no nothing, just silence from everyone. I had no feeling. I must go, I'll write again later. Love Mommy